Happy Free-Thinking Friday!! I’ve been challenging myself to write more often so I spent some time this week doing just that. I hope you enjoy “words from the week”
There is unrest. There is unrest in my spirit when it comes to you. There is unrest in my spirit when it comes to you and I don’t know how to crawl back to happiness. There is unrest in my spirit when it comes to you and existing feels like walking through a minefield, doing my best to avoid triggers that may remind me of you. There is unrest in my spirit and I don’t know how to fix it.
Learning to love you responsibly is remembering that I am deserving of care and comfort. It is tending to my needs. It is putting myself first.
I’m running a race and the only person in the lane next to me is my former self. The Briana of yesterday is my only competition. I’m in a race of my own so the only person to look over and compete with is the woman I was before. My job is to prove that I’m better, faster and stronger than I was yesterday. I have to beat that woman no matter what. I have to beat her mentally, spiritually, and physically. I have to be the best version of myself possible and the only way I can do that is by beating the Briana of yesterday & Honestly, she ain’t got nothing on me.
I’m learning that there is complexity to loss and around every avenue where it exists, sadness will follow.
Loss is a labyrinth with no exit.
Sadness lives in every corridor,
It waits for you around every bend,
There is no escape.