It’s been hard to sleep.
It’s been so hard to sleep.
I’m blessed to have a bed to lay my head but I keep tossing the blankets aside, they feel so heavy on top of me.
Heavy heavy is the perfect word to describe this feeling.
Heavy like rainclouds resting just above your head.
Heavy like inescapable darkness.
Heavy like sickness.
Heavy like that cough you can’t get out of your chest.
Heavy like carrying bricks
like carrying lies
like carrying lives
like carrying deaths.
It just feels heavy