Musings for a Week *Part Two

Day 1

I’m having a really fantastic day today.

I know it’s only 10am but I feel refreshed and energized.

I went to sleep late so I’ll be drinking caffeine for the first time in about 4 months because I need to stay awake all day.

I have a tiny satchel of lavender on my desk. It’s an enjoyable and refreshing experience to hold it to my nose and inhale deeply.

I’m currently listening to the last book of the Harry Potter series and reading Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin (a book I’ve had on my TBR (to be read) list for a veerrrryyyy long time). For some reason, I haven’t felt compelled to read much since I finished my last book but I want to be more intentional about making more time to do so.

I’m wearing very comfy pants and feeling the warmth of my space heater behind me.

I have goosebumps, an almost empty cup of water and two unread emails.

This morning’s yoga session was a slow and meditative practice while last night’s was truly energizing. I think my favorite part of practicing yoga is the fact that each time I step on the mat, I’m given a chance to do my best in that very moment.

Day 2

Hi, today’s a new day and I’m excited that it’s the middle of the week. Wednesdays excite me in a way Mondays never could. I’ve gotten into a really nice flow with my morning routine. Its been a lot of fun to perfect it and to find little moments to spend time with myself and God.

My therapist was worried when I expressed how overwhelmed I felt working an intense 50+ hours a week, planning a wedding and prioritizing the important relationships in my life.

However, since I started writing again, everything in my life has seemed to fall into place seamlessly, even the things I wasn’t worried about to begin with. I’ve woken up earlier, revamped my bible study practice, found time to read, write and be more intentional about moving my body. My animals are loved, cuddled and I’ve found it easier to pour into the people I love, because I’ve spent the necessary time pouring into myself first. Maybe someday I’ll share exactly what my morning routine consists of (it’ll probably be soon, I clearly can’t keep good things to myself). But, I’m happy and I’m in a good place and I have things in my life that could and probably would make me anxious but I feel immense and deep peace. I’m at peace with where I am and who I am and for that I’m grateful.

Day 3

Morning again! It’s a Thursday morning and I am sooooo incredibly sleepy. Somehow I completely missed my 6am alarm and didn’t get up until the 6:30 one. This made me leave the house late and I’m barely keeping my eyes open. Thursdays are usually hard for me. It’s the last day of work for one of my jobs and the second to last for the other. By the time I reach Thursday I’m super tired. It’s literally only 9:30 and I’m struggling.

Day 4

Happy Friday! It’s great to be amongst the living. This morning I read Daniel 7 which is about the 4 beasts and has always been a chapter that confused me greatly but I approached today’s study like I would when taking notes while reading a book for school and I think I understood that chapter in a way I never have before. This morning I encountered the catastrophe of a dog who got sick while in her crate, a cat whose litter box was screaming for help and a tiny little baby headache that’s been threatening to turn into a full blown migraine. But I’m blessed, my hands and feet carried me through and ensured the safety and happiness of my animals. Now I’m sitting at my desk writing, breathing fresh air and feeling the cool breeze wafting into my study. I’m excited for today, it is most definitely going to be a good day.

Day 5

Hi! It’s Monday! I had a pretty chaotic morning. Walking the tiny terrorists was extremely difficult today. The shorter one is becoming more anxious on leash while the bigger one is absolutely obsessed with jumping on humans. After waking up 15 minutes late and changing my outfit 3 times, my tolerance for chaos was entirely too low to handle how obnoxious they were on our walk this morning. This weekend I decided to listen to “The War of Art” by Steven Pressfield and “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz. These are two books I love frequenting. Sometimes, I return to self help books for reminders and encouragement. This morning, I’m currently listening to “Atomic Habits” by James Clear and playing with my new fidget tool I got this past weekend from Barnes and Noble (it’s a squishy yellow duck). Oooooooh, about this weekend! It was so much fun. I had cheesecake on Friday, it was sooo tasty! On Saturday I had an incredibly full day that included a 3 mile hike, a state fair, ice-cream, an art museum and extra cheesy pizza.

Day 6

It’s Tuesday and I’m tired! I’ve been in a meeting for an hour and I’m hopeful I can keep my eyes open for the next 7.5 hours. I’m under my comfy blanket because it was cold this morning and I’m squeezing my new fidget tool. I’m wondering if not drinking caffeine is worth it or if I should revert to consuming it every day. I’m currently listening to “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho again and it’s such a good book. I read it for the first time the summer after my sophomore year of high school. I interned at a non-profit organization and they bought the book for the all the interns. I read it so fast because I loved the book immediately. This is probably my fourth time reading it and I still love it deeply. “Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow” by Gabrielle Zevin is a rather good book too but I’m having a hard time getting into it. I’ve been reading it on my Kindle since last week but my pace is deplorable. I’ve only read 20 percent of the book thus far. I painted on Sunday night and it was an enjoyable experience, it made me realize I hadn’t painted in a while and I missed it deeply. During the pandemic I felt incredibly free and at ease. I dedicated each day to myself. I did what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it. I like to think of those times often and recall the actions that made me feel safe and happy. Whenever I want to remember who I am and what makes me feel good, I think back to those days. Back, when I had an abundance of time and a lack of *responsibilities*. Last night I cuddled with my cat Sushi and completed a mini crossword puzzle after watching two episodes of the Netflix show Indian Matchmaker. I felt so fulfilled and peaceful. My goal in this season, is to spend every free moment serving myself and loving myself in the same way I did during the pandemic.

Day 7

Hello! I spent the morning reading so I’m a little bit behind the schedule I set for myself but Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow is an incredible book! I’m also listening to “Ego is the Enemy” by Ryan Holiday today. I know it may seem like I’m steamrolling through these books but I’ve found a great pace and I want to take advantage of it. It’s a little dreary outside, the sun is hiding and it’s been drizzling since before I walked the dogs 4 hours ago. I like to wake up before the sun has fully risen and this morning’s Bible study coincided with the rising of the sun perfectly and it made me feel incredibly full and grateful for life. I can’t believe it’s Wednesday already. Welp that’s all for now, too-da-loo!


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