Poems for April Part 4

Is the honeymoon phase shortened because my expectations are too high? Is loving me hard? Do I make it hard?

Is it because I put the same ruler against you that I hold over myself every day?

Is loving me hard? Do I make it hard?

Is it because I begin seeing you through the same mirror that I’ve held up to myself my entire life and I’ve never been good enough. I’ll never be good enough.

Is loving me hard? Do I make it hard?

If you could love someone with lower expectations would you find your way back to me?

Is loving me hard? Do I make it hard?

If we could do this without my insecurity and my fear riding shotgun, the entire time, would you choose me?

Is loving me hard? Do I make it hard?

Although these are rhetorical questions I think I already know the answer.

-April 21, 2021